underAveil

this is it?

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 14:02:43 GMT

you make me happy and i look forward to seeing you or hearing from you
don't think it's puppy love to me anymore
sure, there's the puffed-up feeling i get when telling people, Hey! i'm not single anymore!
but overall, it's all about meeting you, and feeling wanted by you.

one weekend and three hickeys later...

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 13:50:45 GMT

seriously, what are we?

sleepover

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 13:41:10 GMT

tomorrow will be interesting.

maybe i deserve to be your rebound

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 18:47:42 GMT

i have sought solace in someone else during my depressed period
i suppose i shouldn't question why you can't do the same

you have been very attentive, caring, and i love talking to you
thankfully i have been quite numb and i have not been letting my emotions through; that's how i have been surviving disappointments that you are still not over her

screw that thought

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 14:17:27 GMT

guess you don't come hassle-free as well
despite your nicknames, flirtations, friendliness

perhaps they are just that.. and we're both friends

damn the star sign

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 18:21:18 GMT

maybe that's why you're taking your own sweet time courting me

it's you

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 16:44:48 GMT

because you trust me with your stories, secrets, history, family, background
you will be by my side in a flash whenever i fall to help me up and to check if i was ok
and because you won me over by your generosity and care

ok and it's you because of your reputation, journey to success and alignment with my future plans.

bff

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 15:41:43 GMT

i find myself distracted away from thoughts of you
i can't be bothered if you're able to join me or not
i think we can be friends, housemates
that was just a phase, methinks
i was trying to conquer you, failed.

let's stay friends.

changing my perception

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 19:33:24 GMT

I'm not sure I can stomach this. Perhaps I am naive to think that whatever shit you throw my way is true. OK perhaps they are true, you sincerely mean whatever you say to me. However, these are not the only nice things that come out of your mouth that is exclusively for me.

Though I am caught up in your notion of open relationships, I never really sat down to think why an open relationship, as opposed to one that is closed, must exist. I have always thought of it as harmless dating; in fact, I have even begun to place myself on the pedestal to think that I am the most cherished. The one you have the most admiration/feelings/attraction for. OK guess not.

Alright. Double standards aside, as I do find other guys I go out with attractive in their own ways. Should I continue accepting your words at face value, or regard them with wariness? The latter, methinks.

replacement

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 17:42:02 GMT

so if it's not the overthinking at work, i think i may be liked... by someone else.

but that person isn't you.

and why the fuck do i think that every time you give a reason as to why you're single, why you choose not to love.. that it relates to me in some way? that i'm the perfect girl you are trying hard not to break-

or am i overthinking again?